I am in the people pleasing business. Business sucks. I don't want to do it. I try not to do it. In the end, I do it anyway. How can I make you happy? When what I really want to do is stab you in the freakin eye with a dull spoon. The funny thing is...I'm a pretty outspoken person, opinionated, and blunt. I usually say what's on my mind. On the other hand somebody..anybody can make a small remark ..and the damage is done. I now am fully aware of their desire..no matter what..it's gonna get to me. The seed has been planted. Now, it may come to pass I don't grant the wish but trust and believe every way possible I could, will run through my mind. Arg! Give it a rest already. Most people aren't looking for me to make them happy...fix it..or make it better. If said people are not happy..there is nothing I can do to change that. Why do I try? I'm a people pleaser. I'm a fixer. I'm co-dependent. I enable.
Well. I have had it. I declare an early on set of the "Fuck It" 40's. Seriously, you don't like me? Well that's too damn bad. I'm rad and your missing out. I don't need your approval or acceptance.
Reality check... I want everybody to like me. I think in a way we all crave acceptance. It is a long hard habit that will be tough to break. I am so envious of my husband, He seems to have this amazing ability to really not give a shit. I can act like I don't.. but I do. I care way too much. Why should it matter what other people think of me? This people pleasing business is for suckers. I need to find a new business.
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