To My Dearest Children,

A letter to my children,

There will not be one single sentence in this letter that will adequately describe how much you mean to me. There is no one word big enough. Love, written, is too small. Four little letters just won't cut it. Neither would a thousand or a million. My love for you is beyond words. There may be a day you have children of your own. Then you will get it. Then you will know. It is as if upon your birth my heart climbed right out of my body and into yours. You share it with each other, but I'll never get it back. It completely and totally belongs to you. My heart soars with you. It swells in hope for your happiness and health. I am to the moon and back grateful for you. Thank you. Thank you for everything. Your smile! Your hand! Even, your eyelashes. Those soft wispy slivers framing those eyes. The windows to your soul. Your light! The way you look at me is beyond comprehension. It's adorable! The love in your eyes completes me. I am humbled by the confidence you have in me. Your voice....oh my goodness...your sweet little voice. The hugs you give...the stories you tell. I could live deaf if only I could still hear you. The way you say my name. The 10,000 ways you say "mommy" over and over. It's a question. It's an answer. Mommy, I need you! Honestly, I need you too. My life was given an unimaginable purpose through you. I carried you.  I would give you my heart a million times over. I would give you anything.  If my love alone could sustain you. You would be rich and plump for all your days. There is no end to my love. The depth is beyond the deepest of depths. If ever I lacked purpose, it is found. You are my reason for being, for breathing, for trying. Trying everyday to be the best I can be. To show you the way, not with just words but by example. You make me a better person. A better person than I ever thought I could be. Being your mom means more to me than I can express. There is nothing better on this earth than you. Shine brightly! You are amazing. So smart! So funny! You can do anything! Trust me! I know you. I grew you! You are unstoppable, inspiring, and beautiful. Beautiful from the top of your head to the tip of your toes. Beautiful in every single way, on every singe inch. Inside, you glow. Your potential is breathtaking. Your heart is pure. I wish I could wrap you in my arms and keep you safe forever. Know that I will never leave you! Ever! Even in my death I will stay by your side. I will be there for every milestone. Feel me in your heart. See me in your dreams because I will always be where you need me. I accept you as you are. I am so so so proud of you. No matter what you go through. I will love you always, forever and beyond.